As you know, I'm up for a promotion that won't advertise until July 1st.  I've been preparing for this job for 2 years, since I came back here.  You're also well aware that there is an interloper who is trying to steal this job out from under me.  She's been coming here, supposedly to "learn about the job", for the last 3 weeks.  Well, it's really starting to wear me down and get me VERY depressed.  David said it was the Devil working on my nerves, and he's doing a great job at it.  I keep praying for sanity, but I just feel like bursting into tears every day. She came in today and had a KEY to the office!  What the hell???  She spoke to me this morning and I off-handedly asked her if she was taking over for the Troop Secretary.  She said, "I don't know.  I guess so!"  Then she kind of giggled.  I wanted to slug her right in the face!!!  I'm not a violent person, but I could tell that I was about to lose it so I just came back to my office and shut the door.  I had to breathe deeply and hold back the tears.  This woman's never been a secretary before and is trying to learn this job and getting an unfair advantage, when I don't have time to learn the new job because I'm here doing MY JOB!!!!

Okay, I'm irrational now.  I know the job hasn't posted yet and my former Post Commander, now Lieutenant, has assured me that they are considering me too.  I have a sneaking suspicion that this witch is going to get this job.  David said that this may be God's way of seeing how I work under pressure.  I'm holding my own, but I'm upset nonetheless.  I've worked hard for this promotion and in 2 years I've learned what I can to get it.  Maybe she's just wasting her time being here, but it's intimidating the HELL out of me.  Part of me just feels like giving up.  Let's be honest here, if she's going to be here every day training for a job, then what's the point of me trying to get it after she's been taken under the wing and trained for it?

The more I think of it, the more pissed off and depressed I become.  I can't NOT think about this situation since the skank is here DAILY!!!  I'm off to go wallow in a Billy Joel CD.