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July 28 Running on EmptyHey Cheese doodles! Today was hellish to say the least, but my leave requests were approved so that's good. CA-RT went about trying to upset me this week, but I did what I could to not let her. 7 more days of working at that hell hole The biggest thrill for me will be to tell her on the 7th that I'm leaving. We have our staff meeting on Monday and then I'll be off Wed, Thurs, and Fri. Wed. is my polygraph and then I intend to call the post to let them know and see when they want me to start. I keep praying that all is going to go well, and that the 7th I can drop the bomb on CA-RT's head. I'm still planning on being off the week of the 14th which is the last week of my 2 weeks notice. I can't tell you how happy I'll be to get out of that awful place. If I knew someone who needed rehab, I would NEVER recommend this agency. Seems like more people are leaving every day and I can't say that I blame them in the least. This has been one of the worst places I've ever worked and I can tell it's taken a toll on me. I honestly believe that this job has caused me to have an ulcer but even if it's not an ulcer, I DO know that it's caused more stress on me than Law Enforcement ever did.
I really do appreciate all of your kind words and support. I hope that I will be able to report in more often while I'm on vacation and then when I start my new job. Hugs to you all. Take care! July 21 Johnny Paycheck said it perfectlyTake this job and shove it! I ain't workin' here no more!!
In just a few weeks, I'll be able to say the same thing. The Investigations office called at 7:30am to arrange a time for my Polygraph. August 2nd is the big day! I've put in a request to be off the 2nd, 3rd and 4th. I'm hoping to put in my transfer notice on August the 7th. I'll work the week of the 7th, but then I've put in another notice already to be off the week of the 14th. I'm hoping to start my new job off after a nice little vacation and the agency and CA-RT can kiss my backside!!!! I just hope that I can last 2 more weeks and 2 days. If my leave request is approved, then I only have 12 more days to work there and I'm stoked to be able to leave.
For the first time in 7 months, I spoke with my sister tonight. She called me this morning which was a shocker. I told her that I just feel more connected with the State Patrol. I gave them over 4 years and had it not been the burn out of dispatching, I would probably never left. I've promised myself that I will start this new job with a better outlook and attitude and I'm not going to let stuff get to me like CA-RT did. Jules, you're right in your comment. Hubby said that CA-RT is going to have a fit when I tell her I'm leaving. He said that she'd probably freak out now that she's going to actually have to do some work. One of my close friend/ co-worker's said that now CA-RT was going to be completely lost because she has no clue what goes on at my site and she's not going to have a clue as to what to do. From that aspect, I'm proud to have caused a little upheaval in CA-RT's life as she caused me to be physically sick for 2 days. She heaps on so much stress and anger on me that I can't handle it. I'll keep ya posted on what happens. Take care!!!! July 19 Singing the bluesI've been feeling so sad today. I feel like I'm falling into a type of depression due to work. CA-RT said some very rude and unkind things to me today that included her saying that the other 2 women I work with, think I'm doing a great job with work but that they don't like me as a person. How could someone say such things?? I feel like I'm holding onto a ledge and the only thing giving me the strength to hold on is my perspective new job. I know they are doing their background investigation on me and that they should be calling me in a week or so for the polygraph. I haven't eaten hardly anything today as CA-RT interrupted my breakfast with her accusatory attitude. After that, I haven't felt like eating. I did manage a little popcorn when I got home from work. Do you ever get that feeling that you really need a good cry, but you just can't get it out? I've been feeling that way all day. I know it's just stress, but I've even had the shakes and a few chest twinges today too. It took every fiber of my being to not quit on the spot or just walk out and go home. I'll be alright, but I just have to get out my anger and sadness. CA-RT's been a monster for ages, that's nothing new. However, to be told that you are a person that no one likes and for her to say things as if I should be grateful for her, makes me physically ill. I can't believe someone could be THAT fake in herself. I need a good cry and a bite to eat, but I don't feel up to either. I think I'm going to try to take some time off around the time of my polygraph test. Just pray for me. I need a sense of peace and strength to get through these last few weeks in Hell. Thanks for letting me vent. Take care!
Sorry I couldn't meet up with you Jules. I hope you'll understand, and maybe we can do it some other time. July 14 TGIF!!!!!!!!It's been a while since I've been here and I appreciate your kind thoughts. I've finished my background packet and mailed it back. The Post Commander of the Post where I'm hoping to work, called me last Monday morning. He wanted to make sure I was still planning on coming there and told me that they are all excited about me coming to work there. Sounds good doesn't it? It gets better. He told me that they had fixed me a nice new office and that they had put new carpet down. He said he was going to be gone for a few weeks, but would be back and hoped that I would be there when he got back. It was an awesome and encouraging conversation. I'm feeling so elated about this new job. Turns out that after one month, our office is going to be moving again!!! Talk about insane!!!! I'm hoping to be out of there by the time they start moving again. CA-RT has truly lived up to her name and has been trying to upset me to no end. She doesn't know I'm leaving but I'm anxious to tell her. I've told a few people that I'm planning on leaving and they said that with me gone, our office will fall apart and CA-RT will be forced to actually do some work for a change. The new Program Manager has totally lived up to my initial impression of her and it's not TOO favorable. I'm figuring that I'll be able to leave in about 3 weeks or so. The only thing left to do is the Polygraph and then I can put in my transfer. I'm hoping to put in for some Comp. time off before I leave there. I've got another 46+ hours of just comp time!!!! My vacation, last week, was all comp time and I still have plenty left to take.
I'm looking forward to this weekend and some regrouping time. I'll be checking in as much as I can. Take care!!! July 09 Vacation Sucks!!!// GrannyTo say that my vacation has been good would be somewhat of a lie. Hubby's granny passed away Friday and the funeral was today. Granny was so cool and had a kick ass sense of humor. She was a gracious lady who cared about everyone. Hubby's estranged, and disowned daughter showed up yesterday at the funeral home looking like a 2 dollar hooker. I know that he and I were upset while the rest of his family kissed her ass and were all over her. Basically, this was a huge slap in our faces. She tells us to go to hell and gives us the middle finger to us for raising her, and now we are supposed to kiss her ass, forgive her and go on like nothing's happened...I don't think so. There's so much more history with this bitch, but I won't bore you. Needless to say, she showed up again today looking worse than a 50 cent hooker and I was mortified. She ignored us for 2+ years and again yesterday and today. We ignored her too. Once a whore, always a whore.
Seeing long lost family was great though. I'm lacking 2 things for my background packet, but I hope to have this in the mail by Wednesday or Thursday. Take care!!! July 02 Vacation's all I ever wanted...I'm so glad that I'm now on vacation! I've got my background investigation packet finished. I'm just waiting to get my transcripts from schools and then I can send it in. I have 30 days to get it in, but I want to get it back in half that time. It's the waiting game that gets me. I spoke with Mom and she is happily on board with my decision. She was mainly concerned that I hadn't thought about it and was rushing into something blindly. As this is not the case, she's on board. Dad has been Mr. Supportive since the get-go and is happy that I'm going back to the State Patrol. I just had to reassure him that I wasn't going to be dispatching anymore and he was good to go. Sounds to me like the family is now 100% behind me on this.
We had to go see hubby's granny today. She's 89 and is in ICU at the hospital. Hubby doesn't think she's going to ever recover from this one. We discussed it and we are both completely prepared for what is coming. Now if hubby's family can keep it together.
I spent my first day of vacation painting the front porch, and getting ready for the screening to begin. We are nearing the screening phase and I can't say when I've been more thrilled!!! I've wanted a screened in porch in front since we bought this raggedy old house. LOL
Since hubby is working on the 4th, I'm planning on doing hot dogs, baked beans, chips, etc on the 3rd. He's going to be working at his landscaping job on Monday, so I'm going to have everything cooked by the time he gets back. The rest of the week, I'm going to be hiding in the pool! I'm ecstatic!!! It's supposed to be in the mid to upper 90's here and I'm not into heat and humidity. I KNEW I should have moved west towards the desert! LOL
Hubby and I were on our way back from the hospital and he showed me where he's going to buy my schnauzer puppy. He's known for quite some time that there is a reputable breeder close by us, so he said he was going to go see them first.
Have a super 4th and I'll be back soon! Take care!!!!!!
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